Negative FET

Well, as expected, my beta test came back negative. It was a little disappointing as I had secretly held out a little hope, but having my little Oliver’s giggle to listen to lessened the hurt tremendously. We are so lucky to have such a happy and healthy little boy, we feel immensely fortunate.

After some soul searching and trying to figure out what I truly want, I’ve decided to go for a full IVF round to have another baby. It will be tough on me, but it’s is what I want in my heart, and haven’t allowed myself to feel it. But now that I have, I feel at peace. I’ve been stuffing my feelings down for so long and justifying why we shouldn’t have another child, but deep down, I want one. So we’re going to go for it.

We’ll do medicated IVF, harvest the eggs then to PGS testing again. We’ll then do an FET and hopefully will have success. I’ve been taking CoQ10 for about 5 weeks now in hopes of helping my eggs, so I’m hopeful that we’ll have some success. My follicles at my last FET ultrasound Day 3 appointment were about 20, so we are hopeful that this will work again.

Wish me luck 🙂

Day 8

BFN on FRER

Day 6pt

I tested with FRER and got negative. I know it’s only 6 days, but last time it was positive at 6dpt. Not feeling very positive about this one. Thank goodness Oliver is giving me lots of hugs today 🙂

Embryo Oct 13 2015

we DID it! Transfer complete!

I can’t believe it, but the little embryo made it through the thaw.

Last week’s lining check went great, triple line about 11 cm.  I was nervously awaiting the transfer day on Tuesday, fearing that the embryo would not survive the thaw.  In our last FET, one didn’t survive so it was top of mind.

We arrived at 130 for pre-acupuncture (still no call), then Hena, the acupuncturist said that the thaw starts 24 hours before so I would’ve heard by then. A bit of relief and disbelief came over me.  Wow, it was really going to happen!

We went in for the transfer, and was told that the embryo that had a 90% expansion which was very good, anything over 80 was great and rarely did they see 100.  Still don’t really know what that means but they were happy with it.  Transfer went in without a hitch, and I even got a little lump in my throat realizing what was happening!

Post acupuncture was relaxing and i realized that my last baby was back with me.  No more storage in the cryobank.  So whatever happens, I feel like we made the right decision to try.

So the 2 week wait begins…